My world has been very busy lately, although you'd not know if by my posting to this blog. I've been very quiet lately, thinking about things, how to deal with certain things, if I should change a few things, old things, new things, inevitable things. So, I have come to the conclusion that I NEED A DAY OFF! So, I'm taking one this Friday and going up Northern Arkansas for some cool fresh air and I don't even care if it SNOWS me in! Not that it would ever happen...this IS Arkansas.
Anyways, I am kind of on an emotional rollercoaster of sorts. My "rock" has disappeared, just when I needed HIM most and I have no clue as to why. Plus, my son, my baby boy, is leaving for basic training on Wednesday. I'm taking him to a hotel tomorrow evening where they are all meeting up before the flight. So I'm a little sad....OK...a LOT sad. He's 20 and he has taken a long time to decide this is what he wants to do. He has not yet decided that he will join the Army full time; he may stay in the National Guard and stay local. But, I do have a feeling the "call of duty" is pulling him hard and he may well enlist full time. Whatever he decides to do, I'm behind him 100%. He will be gone for about 15 weeks (10 weeks of basic training and 5 weeks of AIT) at Ft. Benning, Georgia. He won't be here for Thanksgiving, but will be home for Yule. Then, he'll be off again to finish it all off.
So, I'll be an empty nester for the first time and part of me is looking forward to it...the Mommy in me is NOT. I guess that is just more weekends that I will have to get the grandsons and keep those babies!
Okay, nuff whining....